Wednesday, July 13, 2005

What goes around comes around?

Well not quite.

I was almost 17 when I met him. He was 19. He was larger than life in my eyes. I instantly fell in love with dark eyes and olive skin. He had charisma and charm. I found out later he told his best friend the night we met..."I am gonna marry that girl". Well, we started dating, got closer and I started skipping school and chores to be with him. We would drive around and listen to "Ozark Mountain Daredevils" blasting on the radio. He would hold my hand and we would just have that teenage fun! Oh and besides his charisma, charm and good looks, he turned my mood ring purple so I just knew I was in love!

Four months later we were married. Four years later I give birth to a beautiful daughter. She had a personality of both of us. She could look at me a certain way and cock her little head to the left and put her hand on her hip get whatever she wanted! She got the charisma and charm of her father.

Clock goes forward 7 years. He falls in love with his secretary, divorces me and marries her. Well, I remember her words to me very distinctly and I will never forget them. "I am going to marry him, have children, a huge house and a BMW. We will have all our dreams come true."

Clock goes forward 20 years...They are getting a divorce and selling and splitting up their $300,000 home. Their daughters are teenagers now. He is 49 and she is 44.

Do I feel some sense of vindication? Well maybe a small bit. I always wondered what she had that I didn't have. I remember through the years always wondering "has she gained weight"?
Are they happy?

Well, I guess it isn't about what she has/had that I didn't/don't have. I guess it is the two people and the life they made together. Most of all I am saddened. Here we have another broken family, visitation and child support and she is added to the statistics that I was never proud to be part of. 50% of marriages end in divorce...a club I never wanted to be invited to join...




1 Comments:

Blogger Ace of Spades said...

yeah, me neither to the club thing. But I would rather be happy then stick to a marriage that has fallen apart. I think I have found my true love in this world. She is the greatest thing to me and I hope I do not screw it up.

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